tired
i wake up, tired. the energy slowly builds after i get out of bed and get out of my head. brush my teeth, take a shower, listen to music all the while preaching “knowledge is power”. i leave my room to go do what i have to for the day and the energy hits a peak. sadly, this peak could be disrupted or even be out of reach entirely if i trip up once. send a shitty meme to the group chat or realize i’m getting lagged on or think about how im not at where im supposed to be compared to the people around me or think about how im going to get to where i want to go. i go back home, tired, peak or not. i change my clothes, play video games, and piss away the rest of the day because my mind festers in my negatives. i go to sleep, tired, praying this time it’s forevermore.