(series) pseudo-liberation from my personal alcatraz
hastily scrawled thoughts from my time in san francisco. written solely on a small yellow notebook carried with me wherever i went (bolded words are placeholders for underlining). March 31st, 2025 - April 2nd, 2025
beginning of the end
prepare to fly, human
marvel at our ingenuity!
wonders of the world, come one come all!
come feast your eyes on what we have to offer
spend spend spend your wages
come and consume what we have created
wage slave, do you wish to consume our creations?
do you wish to create your own?
zombie, so full of life!
show us what it is you bring to the table
show us you are worthy to have a seat
prepare to die, human
true self
transparency is a tall ask
i can't even see what goes on in there
this soul of mine, "Oh So Divine!"
blackened in more ways than one
i cry out for love but youre stupid if you fall for it
thinking critically is attractive what can i say?
i know if they see me, they will scream and run
settle for less or be alone forever?
decisions, decisions...
what are you scared of?
practice what you preach and tell your friends!
but not to hard on the gas, they might get upset that everything they internalize is wrong.
embarrassing, these are your closest people???
embarrassing, you dont have the spine to let them go.
you cant even post on your story without thinking on it for a week.
what are you scared of?
post that pic, attack those close people, be better in all outlets.
creativity
worst place to find yourself in is a rut
everything is a distractor
forcing yourself to create just makes shit
folks downplay the importance of mindset!
"sometimes, i'm not in a thinking mood".
obvious in hindsight but real nonetheless!
surround yourself with uplifters, good folk with good heads on good shoulders.
energy
the only force in the universe is energy. time and effort are both just energy. i can go on and on but the point is there. when i boil it all down, I want need to leave my mark, my energy behind. I have an insatiable need to let the would know what it is i have to offer. i see my potential, i know my greatness. the struggle comes from knowing how to optimize said energy. a humans eternal struggle (my eternal struggle at least), practicing what you preach.
revelations
so, human... are we prepared to sit at the table?
or will we stay consuming consuming consuming?
time will tell, effort will show.
your energy will reveal all!
keep in mind, no one is forcing you.
you chose this path but if you can't take the heat... burn in hell.
we will leave a seat open for you.
always within sight, never within reach.
that is, until you grow big enough to reach.
do what you must, enjoy every minute, make it happen...