free will’s curse / her i
i’m so shell shocked with choices and paths that i don’t even really know where to go when faced with opportunity.
it’s not like any of this is new to me i’ve been making choices and choosing paths every second of every day.
but as of late ive been so blessed with avenues for the future that it stunlocks me completely until fate chooses for me.
i want to write and i play with ideas until everything gets jumbled in my head and when i try to articulate it onto paper, it all goes to shit.
one of the reasons i look up to her is she’s so malleable and yet decisive on what she chooses for that time in her life.
she’s super in the moment and when she feels something with passion she gets it down on her paper.
i feel jealousy for that man.
he had the ability to invoke the emotions of this wonderful genuine genius of a women and still fumbled the bag.
i could only imagine her being in love with me that heavily.
id look around like “this can’t be!” but enjoy the moment all the same.
every waking moment, i’d want to spend with her, watching her articulate her emotions onto paper evermore.